Sometimes, the emotions of my day can not be expressed in sentences. I have been having some serious trouble formulating sophisticated thoughts in my brain this past week and the only way I was able to express my feelings was through poetry. Last week I was still feeling kind of down. I guess it was the hormones again. I am feeling a little better now-a-days and I am sure my second entry will show you just that. It will also prove my current lack of creativity and writer's block...such a shame I have a 5 page paper to finish tonight...damn the timing.
I haven't fely myself lately
is it too late to say that I'm crazy
crazy for answers, crazy for truths
crazy from listening to all the bad news
Where has my heart gone
passions escaped away for long
inner turmoil has got me down
pushing my dreams into the ground
I don't aim to hurt, I don't aim to lie
I don't aim to be so upset that I must cry
I don't wish for anger, depression or grief
I just want to be able to believe
Believe in Love, God and all that is good
believe in all the things that I should
but what does it matter when I feel this way
as if my sadness will never go away
I look into your eyes and feel your soul
they burn right through me creating a hole
but I don't know if it's me or it's you
sometimes I just don't know what to do
So I will say that I am sorry
for not being myself lately
and admitting that I might be crazy
crazy for answers, crazy for truths
and for giving you all this bad news
Depressing, I know.... This one is a little more cheery. It's words to a song I'm working on, so I guess you can make up your own tune in your head.
I ain't a fan of many things
but what I am I cannot sing
for I ain't as simple as I seem
I'm what they call the inbetween
between the normal and the weird
between the pleasant and the feared
a mood that changes night and day
who never cares what people say
(chorus) No, I'm not here to 'pologize
I just want to enjoy the ride
don't care how long it will take me
I will do as I fancy
Life is short, drink Shiner Beer
I'll do my best while I'm here
I'm tired of hearing people say
what the nation did today
blue or red, red or blue
you only know what's right for you
I got no money nor stinkin' job
or a reason to cry and sob
because I know who I am
I am but am my biggest fan
(chorus again)
I hope you'll come and stay a while
maybe we can laugh and smile
and drink a bock and sing a song
stay up dancing all night long
cause I don't care 'bout many things
but what I do I guess I'll sing
Have a great weekend everyone!
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