Bored, so I'm going talk about myself...hope that's OK.

I stole this from a Blog I occasionally read while at work. I believe reading the blogs of women who have "been there and done that" has opened my eyes to a whole new world of understanding. I can get a taste of what the days ahead of me will bring and have a few laughs along the way. Since I don't have anything in particular to talk about, I'm going to ramble about myself because, well who really wants to learn Spanish anyway?

The phone rings. Who will it be?
most likely Jordan, Shelly, or my little brother calling to complain about a smell in the kitchen or that I forgot to wash my dishes before I went over to Jordan's.

When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
Yes, but you have to be careful when you shop at HEB now-a-days because those carts will lock up on you if you go outside of the boundaries and the little lines they have painted that mark the boundary are very, very deceiving.

In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
Definitely a listener, which is annoying to me sometimes because professors love to make "class participation" 20% of my final grade, meaning I have to come up with something insightful to say during discussions which would be fun but I can never come up with something meaningful to contribute. Maybe this is why my GPA is stuck at a 3.0.

Do you take compliments well?
I don't know, I usually never believe the person. I think they are just saying it to be nice. Irregardless, I always say "thank you".

Do you play Sudoku?
Definitely, positively, absolutely not. Numbers make me sweat and throw things across rooms in frustration. Cross-words I will do though!

If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
I would try and find a way but there is no way I could do what Bear Grills does. Hopefully a will to live and see Jordan again would get me through starvation, hypothermia, dehydration, etc.


Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
The regular day camps and vacation bible schools. Nothing exciting.

What was your favorite game as a kid?
Chutes and Ladders and M&M poker. Enough said.

Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
Depends, Jordan is Lutheran and I was raised Catholic. Both religions are very similar but we have both sort of drifted away from our denominations. I think we're a good combination of Lutheranism and Catholicism now. However, I think if someone were to have a completely different view on faith than I it would be difficult.


Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
I liked to do both, although I definitely pursued Jordan more than he pursued me. Hell, I initiated our first kiss.

Use three words to describe yourself?
math-illiterate, caring (too much sometimes), carefree

Do any songs make you cry?
no, unless it's an emotional setting, like say on my wedding day and a song my mother absolutely adored was being played while I walked down the aisle, then yes. I would bawl my eyes out.

Are you continuing your education?
I am currently 2 semesters away from receiving my bachelor's degree in History and then hopefully in another 2 years I will get my Master's! So yes.

Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
Yes, my sister Rebecca and I did at the Katy Mall one night years ago. They were actually really funny. I remember that night like it was yesterday.

How often do you read books?
When I am not in school...so not nearly as often as I wish I could

Do you think more about the past, present or future?
I think a lot about the past because the memories are all I have of my mother. I think about the present when worrying about school assignments or work duties. The future is filled with my dreams of wedding days and owning a house....

What is your favorite children’s book?
I think the Dr. Suess books were pretty awesome. The book I first read on my own was "Green Eggs and Ham".

What color are your eyes?
green, sometimes a faint blue, sometimes a gray. They change depending on my mood, what I'm wearing, or the weather.

Where is your dream house located?
Wherever Jordan and I are happy.

If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
The picture of my parents, my guitar, and I guess Jordan since he probably wouldn't wake up to the alarm.

When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
For Jordan and I's three year anniversary last Halloween. It was the first time I had ever been to an Olive Garden and I haven't gone back since.

Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
To work/school, about 7 miles down the road.

Do you like mustard?
I LOVE honey mustard with pretty much everything. Can't go wrong with that stuff.

Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Sleep! I'll wake up when I am hungry but sleep ftw.

Do you look like your mom or dad?
I think I have traits from both. It's hard to tell, all us Stevensons look very different from each other, although, people would love to tell us otherwise.

How long does it take you in the shower?
about 7 minutes unless I am shaving my legs...then it's about 17-25 minutes.

Can you do the splits?
Absolutely not. I am the most inflexible person to walk this earth.

What movie do you want to see right now?
None, really. Not a big movie-goer.

What did you do for New Year’s?
Cooked for the Dees's and then drank wine and chatted with Jordan and his mother for the rest of the night.

Do you think The Grudge was scary?
Never really saw The Grudge. Not really into that stuff.

Do you own a camera phone?
Yes, but I never use it because the quality is so crappy.

What’s the last letter of your middle name?
E

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
I wish I could get 10 but usually around 8 or 9. I go to bed early on purpose.

Do you like Care Bears?
I did when I was little, probably not so much now.

What do you buy at the movies?
We ALWAYS get popcorn and a slushie to share. ALWAYS.

Do you know how to play poker?
Somewhat, but not really. Now M&M poker, that's my game.

Do you wear your seat belt?
It's a habit so I always have it on. Feels weird when it's off.

How many meals do you eat a day?
Probably 2 solid meals a day during the week and 3 good ones a day on the weekends with dessert.

Do you like funny or serious people better?
I like people to have a good time and laid back but take care of business when that time comes around.

Ever been to L.A.?
No, but I do want to go to California really soon.

Did you eat a cookie today?
I never really eat a lot of cookies.

Do you hate chocolate?
I LOVE chocolate

Are you a gullible person?
If I am having a slow morning then yes, but usually I am on top of my game.

Are you easy to get along with?
I'd like to think so.

Can I be self-centered and whiny for a moment?

I have such a lack of motivation these days. I can barely make myself do my school assignments. I can barely make myself do anything, nonetheless, and I am so tired all of the time. For instance, last night I fell asleep on Jordan's couch at 8:20pm. My goodness, IT WASN'T EVEN 9 YET! I'm only 21 years old for Pete's sake, not 84! OK, so I may be turning 22 in a couple of weeks, but still....

I don't know what's happened to me. I don't know how I could have become so lazy. I want to do better, I really do, but I don't know how. I know it sounds pathetic, but it's the truth.

I find myself worrying about a lot of things lately. Worrying about my grades, my future, my life after death, my faith, my relationship, my bank account, my choices, my ability to do anything well, and etc. I worry if I'll ever gain the motivation to do well in school ever again, or if I'm just going to lay back and let the GPA fall down...down...down. My GPA is fine right now, and it's only the 3rd week of the semester, but I feel so overwhelmed.

There are things I still love. I love sitting on a porch with my family and laughing. I love talking with Jordan's Mother one-on-one until 12:30am. I love spending time with just Jordan, laying in bed all Sunday afternoon laughing and not having to worry about a single school assignment for hours. I love going to Aggie football games or sitting in front of the television and watching other universities duke it out on the gridiron while I wait for the next game at Kyle Field to begin. I love to sleep and come home to a clean house...

I love not having to worry.

I just don't want to do it anymore. I am so tired of school. I want to finish. I am so close yet so far.

I am being a child.

This is a part of growing up. This is all about learning to take on responsibilities and taking care of business. A part of this excites me. The thought of graduating from a top ranked university in the country thrills me to no end. I dream every day about the time when I can own my own house, bought with the money both my husband and I worked hard for every day at our jobs. The day when I can come home and cook a full meal that doesn't require me to stick something in a microwave for 3 minutes, remove and stir, and nuke for an additional 2 more minutes. I can't wait to share a life with the man I love more than anything in this world.

My impatience is getting the best of me.

So, I call out to my older and wiser friends and siblings. Those who have walked down this road before and can shed a little a light on my situation. I know school will end sooner than I know it, and I know it will take a lot of self discipline to get my mind in the right state to complete my scholastic duties, but at a time when I feel like my whirlwind of mediocrity and self-pity won't end I need the guidance of one person to get me through this. To remind me that what I feel and think of today is minute when compared to what is waiting for me in the future, if I have lived a faithful life.... The Lord will see me through and I have to remind myself that what some are experiencing at this moment is far worse than what I may ever come across, and that I should be grateful and thankful for the opportunities I am given and the people and things I am blessed with every day.

Maybe sometimes too much wisdom isn't such a great thing.

- Shirley

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